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Wednesday, October 20, 2010
Boredom and Decisions
I have officially become bored to a new level. The only thing that ever interests me would be COSB, music, choir, dance and k-pop. Yay.On another note, I've contracted allergies AGAIN. Thank God I spitted out that lobster ball, if not worser allergy breakouts will occur.
Night after night, I have the same dreams about family actually objecting me to learn dance cos they think it's a waste of time. Well, as I guessed, the dream was half-true. I don't understand. Learning popping, k-pop etc shouldn't kill my arms, legs or my body, so why do they object? I hope that the reason is not something along the lines of "Dance will bring me nowhere, rather use that money for tuition", or "You simply can't dance. Don't force yourself."
I refuse to stop dancing just like that. I practice in my room. But then, the width of my bed is slightly wide, and I got two bruises on my knees and cuts on my arms for doing dance.
As a fan of k-pop, honestly speaking, they don't understand how lousy it feels to have poor motor skills, poor singing, bad memory of lyrics and no dancing abilities. I think, what they're doing is, like Evan, stop me from listening to k-pop cos they think it's degrading to my ears. And choir is no big help here also.
I have a few options here: Save up hundreds of dollars monthly to pay for dance fees and learn dance behind my parents' back, altogether stop dancing, or learn dance by myself.
Choir concert, 2nd December. 11 songs in total. With family issues such as debating whether to rent out my room, sell my Macbook cos we're quite cash-strapped and selling away our house, I don't think I'm ready for this. Ask me this half a year ago, I'll say I'm ready. But now, I'm not.
The reason is simple. Really. Firstly, I think I'm gonna make an idiot out of myself if I actually go. Last year proved everything. Secondly, I'm most likely gonna have a replay of MGS exchange over again. Thirdly, the songs we're singing, in a sense, makes me wanna puke and not sing. Don't get me wrong, those songs are actually very nice, but if we were to sing songs like Kiss The Girl while performing with PL as guests, I really don't know whether to sing or not.
If God can change me, He needs to change me now,and fast. If not, I'm really considering to not sing, regardless of the advice I get.
Now, dance has become such as huge negative issue at home. I get "insulted" by my cousins, asking me to dance. I want to, but I have PO. So how?
Posted at: 8:17 PM
Friday, October 1, 2010
Overdrive
Oh, God, this sucks! Exams in a week's time and I can't study properly! My brain is so tired that I can't follow instructions properly!Posted at: 10:29 PM
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