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Boredom and Decisions

I have officially become bored to a new level. The only thing that ever interests me would be COSB, music, choir, dance and k-pop. Yay.

On another note, I've contracted allergies AGAIN. Thank God I spitted out that lobster ball, if not worser allergy breakouts will occur.

Night after night, I have the same dreams about family actually objecting me to learn dance cos they think it's a waste of time. Well, as I guessed, the dream was half-true. I don't understand. Learning popping, k-pop etc shouldn't kill my arms, legs or my body, so why do they object? I hope that the reason is not something along the lines of "Dance will bring me nowhere, rather use that money for tuition", or "You simply can't dance. Don't force yourself."

I refuse to stop dancing just like that. I practice in my room. But then, the width of my bed is slightly wide, and I got two bruises on my knees and cuts on my arms for doing dance.

As a fan of k-pop, honestly speaking, they don't understand how lousy it feels to have poor motor skills, poor singing, bad memory of lyrics and no dancing abilities. I think, what they're doing is, like Evan, stop me from listening to k-pop cos they think it's degrading to my ears. And choir is no big help here also.

I have a few options here: Save up hundreds of dollars monthly to pay for dance fees and learn dance behind my parents' back, altogether stop dancing, or learn dance by myself.

Choir concert, 2nd December. 11 songs in total. With family issues such as debating whether to rent out my room, sell my Macbook cos we're quite cash-strapped and selling away our house, I don't think I'm ready for this. Ask me this half a year ago, I'll say I'm ready. But now, I'm not.

The reason is simple. Really. Firstly, I think I'm gonna make an idiot out of myself if I actually go. Last year proved everything. Secondly, I'm most likely gonna have a replay of MGS exchange over again. Thirdly, the songs we're singing, in a sense, makes me wanna puke and not sing. Don't get me wrong, those songs are actually very nice, but if we were to sing songs like Kiss The Girl while performing with PL as guests, I really don't know whether to sing or not.

If God can change me, He needs to change me now,and fast. If not, I'm really considering to not sing, regardless of the advice I get.

Now, dance has become such as huge negative issue at home. I get "insulted" by my cousins, asking me to dance. I want to, but I have PO. So how?

Posted at: 8:17 PM

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Friday, October 1, 2010

Overdrive

Oh, God, this sucks! Exams in a week's time and I can't study properly! My brain is so tired that I can't follow instructions properly!

Posted at: 10:29 PM

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Tuesday, September 14, 2010

New Album Review

Got 插班生‘s new album today at DISCOUNTED PRICE(Thanks to Evan Lee) and I'm here for a review!!

Generally, their debut album is good in like almost all aspects. Cover looks cool, lyrics book looks damn cool also, and the songs are kinda nice to listen to.

First song that got stuck in my head was DEFINITELY 人生试验课! It's not just cos I was in the MV or anything, but scientific facts coupled with catchy tune and great sound made this the first song I absolutely enjoy!

Secondly was Evan's recommendation. 小动作 was also, to me, a good song. Guitar intro rocked, and voices enhanced the overall sound and texture of the song. Sounded like a cross between Ocean( Ou De Yang), Evan's great guitar riffs and a bit of Li Sheng Jie.

Thirdly, Polaroid. No, it's not the camera. It's the 4th song of their album. Another great guitar intro, nice piano entries and sound effects, great voice control(I'm slowly losing my ability to hit the high notes of Polaroid!)

Fourthly,回憶 這東西 was also one of my favorites. At first it sounded like an acapella cover of a Taylor Swift song, then it became more of a famous jazz star's voice cos I could hear a small bit of jazzy tunes in it. This was one of the few rare songs I have on iTunes that really got me reflecting on 2010 and the years past in SASS.

Lastly,爛人館. That song's starting reminds me of Jay's 三年二班. And after that, well, feels like acapella, jazz, a bit of rock and pop plus the tune of New York combined. Makes you think of Michael Buble's Feeling Good as well.


I may be over-exaggerating, but well, their songs bring a effect similar to that I posted, if not exact. And if you've been following them on Twitter( I know you will, Raymond), their album is 2nd on HMV's Asian chart. And their album was released not that long ago.


Thanks to Evan for the discounted album price PLUS chance in the MV of 人生试验课!! Err, if you see this, forget about the 1 dollar you owe me today!

Posted at: 5:41 PM

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Friday, September 10, 2010

Cutting Names, Dropping Status, Enhancing Life?

I was very bored. Quite sad and emo this few days, despite a face completely opposite.

First, let's discuss exams. Even after improvements in Geog and maintaining my Science, my L1R5 was a pathetic 20. All my As have turned into Bs(rarely) and Cs, and the rest turns into an F9(Screw you, Maths). As predicted, I got lectured. 

Next, I've been screwed by new curfew rules. Don't wish to disclose here, it's almost exactly the same as the 2 month computer ban and study curfew I got last year

Thirdly, I've been more impulsive, short-tempered and aggressive, too much to the point whereby I rush into things, jump into wilder conclusions and not thinking what I say. Basically, I shoot my mouth off and let it out, regardless on how it affects others.

If this was stress, I really don't think such extreme conditions would appear.Even if it did, it should be in a smaller scale.

I'm still having pangs of guilt from the old one. Maybe if I wasn't immature, then it wouldn't had happened. It feels like every physical pain I endure is nothing compared to the emotional pain I inflicted on her.

There are good times and bad times in life. However, a cruel and unshaved bastard by the name of Reality facepalms you and beats you down into submission, leading you to curse and swear at the bad times. Therefore, we need God to offset this so that we can have a way of escape. I doubt I have been trusting Him recently.

Well, to end off on a happy note, I FINALLY RE-STRINGED MY ACOUSTIC GUITAR!

Posted at: 9:05 PM

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Thursday, June 10, 2010

Revival with Ranting

Hi. Forgot I own a blog till recently.

I can't say I'm doing good now. Really. This isn't some rip-off from other people's blogs or anything. It's true. For those people in 3S2, you will know this quite well.

This year, I began thinking that I would be happy if I mugged right from the start. True, it gave me some recognition as "smart" but only temporarily. By the end of SA1, my results dropped by 1-2 grades, giving me an L1R5 of 16,which really sucks.

Sometimes, I don't even want to talk to people like Evan,who honestly is really a good friend to me. I'm too exhausted by my own problems that I just want to emo in my own room un-noticed.

And to her,whom many people know: I'm really sorry for every thing I did that caused you hurt over the past 6 months. Please don't feel guilty FOR me anymore;I don't deserve it. You should be pissed at me,not sad for me. Go back to leading your happy life before. Don't care about me. I can stand on my own.

Damn. Everything's going worse. Just stop hurting me more and more, I don't want to even tell Him about my plans. I know, I made the wrong choice. But sometimes, I need to bang a few walls myself before I get a clearer sense of direction. So, give me some time. I need to cool down.

Posted at: 9:31 PM

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